For the last two years, I’ve grown through every hardship I’ve face and every trial/tribulation has shown me that there was a better version of myself waiting on the other side. I am at a point where I am tired of growing. Yeah I said it.
I want to be able to just sit in where I am and enjoy what life has to offer me. Right now (in my opinion) life isn’t offering me a whole lot and why should she when I’ve been settling. When you realize that you’ve been in your own way then you begin to doubt your worth overall. If I can’t see it then why do I expect anyone else to see it?
I know that when I discovered this over a year ago I realized that GROWTH is necessary and it will always be uncomfortable for me. Releasing old thoughts.. Breaking habits.. Losing things.. Moving on in life.. Shifting.. Transitioning.. Pivoting… It’s a part of life and the more I try to fight it the more the universe shows me that I have no other choice, but to grow through it all. So here I am uncomfortable AF but excited about what’s next in my life. Therapy has been helpful. My support system is strong and I truly believe that it will all get better.
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Oh, Happy Birthday to my first born son Sean B. He is 17 years old today and if you know my story then you know having him in my life saved me. Beyond blessed to be his mother and y’all.. he’s a whole SENIOR this fall in high school. TALK ABOUT GROWTH!!!! <insert tears of joy>